Letters to Damian

Hello love  , I have been ever so busy today getting everything ready for our trip .Pawpaw and I will be heading out tomorrow. I hope you are well . I bet you are getting so big . I mean everyday  you  are learning something new  everyday .  I hope that you are not learning incorrect ways of behavior by those around you  . I am sure you are not .You are a smart little boy . I hope that you are being taking care of .I hope that you are happy and that you get to see smiles everyday .I hope so many things for you .
                                                                                        Love
                                                                                         Meme

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Hey bud ,
               I hope you are doing well . I have not heard anything from your great Grandma Gene or your Daddy . I have been trying to reach someone about being able to spend time with  you .I continue to call your Grandma Regina's cell phone and I get no reply .I can't imagine why no one is trying to reach me,you would think that someone would try .Well ,I will not give up you are to important to us to just forget about you .Pawpaw says he loves you and he can't wait till he can take you on a ride on the Oliver tractor .We love you .
                                                                                       Meme and
                                                                                  Pawpaw John

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Hello my darling ,

Me and my Angel

      How are you today? We just got back from getting your Aunt Cherokee ready for her first day in high school . Tomorrow will be her first day back to school . I talked to your Mommy today . She sounded really sad because of what is going on with her and your Daddy.He says that you wont be safe with her because you had gotten a broken  leg due to a little boy when ya'll were staying in that shelter in Buffalo .That was an accident .She took you to the doctor and took care of you. But as I remember  you  were burned by a curling iron that was plugged in while you were in the care of your Grandma Regina .She was supposed to be watching you when you were still getting around in your walker . The curling iron  was plugged in in the bathroom she said she didn't think you could get in there ,But you did . That is how you got the mark on your leg and side . I think that was neglectful on her part ,and that's who you will be with when your Daddy goes to training .  Well ,  than that being the case the only place you will be safe is here with me and Pawpaw and your Daddy will not even talk to us . Don't get me wrong Damian , I love them both but, they have to work this out in there own way .I am just left confused and frustrated because for what ever reason I to have been cut off from you . I don't understand why and it drives me crazy not knowing how you are doing . I hope your Mommy and Daddy can work this out .Remember I LOVE YOU........Sweet dreams,Happy dreams,Pleasant dreams,Good night...

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Hey Buddy , I hope things are fine with you today .I worked with Pawpaw at the shop .When I got home I seen that I missed a call from your Mommy so I called her back .(Guess what ?)she told me she was texting with your Daddy and that she would call me back .So maybe that is a good thing right?Maybe we will get to play again soon I miss your laughter .The leaves will be falling again soon . Do you remember when we racked up that great big pile of leaves and we all played in them . You are too young to remember but we do and it was fun take my word for it ,even Pawpaw got in on the act. I can not wait until we can play again.We love you
                                                                                                           Pawpaw,Cherokee ,Meme
                                                                                                                                and Codiered

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Hey Damian, I hope you have had a great day today.I talked with your Momma .She was making chicken for dinner.I also talked to your Aunt Brittany she told me about a new plushie she is making.We are  a creative family.I even spoke with your Great Grandmother Gene  I asked her if she should happen to speak with your Daddy if she would  tell him I miss you , and  that I love you , and  would love to see you . I missed alot  of your Mommy growing up because of family issues and now I am missing you grow up . Due to family issuses.That sucks....But , what can I do if your Daddy cuts not only your Mommy out of your life but me as well.Not to count Pawpaw John and Aunt Cherokee and of course Codiered . We love you Sweet dreams,Happy dreams ,Pleasant dreams , Good night Babyboy  
                                               Meme

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Hey little buddy ,I hope you have had a great day playing with your toys and I hope you have been getting a bunch of hugs and kisses .We are getting ready for our trip and your Aunt Cherokee is getting ready to start high school . One day you will go to high school .That will be an adventure for you .You are always on my mind .I think about what you might be doing and I hope you are smiling . I love you Damian and I hope to see you soon .
                                                                                         Meme

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Well my darling boy , how are you .I hope you are well .I am worried about you and ,overwhelmed at this turn of events with your Daddy and your Mommy . Daddy says he is going to keep you and that your Mommy can not see you anymore . Your Mommy tells me she will be here soon regardless of what your Daddy text to her through someone else's cell phone.How much of a coward does it make you if you can't talk out the issues at hand . Sorry about that Damian , your parents are kids after all .  And I know Grandma Regina is the biggest part of this drama . I am trying to find out what is going on but,she wont talk to me and if I were to go there they are stupid enough to say I am trespassing just to be difficult . I do know they are scared and that is why they are keeping you away from us .  They know you have such happy times when you  would come visit me , Pawpaw John ,Aunt Cherokee and of course little Codyred . They don't know that what they are doing  to you is wrong . The lies they have to makeup tell themselves  it is ok and for all of the guilt they will feel later for their actions to make it seem ok for hurting you. And, they wont  find out what kind of tremendous damage they are truly doing until after it is too late . The damage that can be done to relationships of parent and child. It is something you  can never get back. I want you to know that your Mommy always wants you AND she is coming after you . No matter what kind of ugliness might be going on right now,and that she trusted your Daddy and she thought she was doing a good thing by bringing you to spend time with him.I know I seem to keep repeating that I just don't want you to think she left you .They took you! I don't understand all of this .Your Daddy told me he would never take you away from her but it seems as if he is going to try.Hang in there . We are here for you .Sweet dreams Happy Dreams Little man.

                                                        We love you Deeply 

                                                                               Meme

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Hey Buddy ,Well the time has arrived and the craziness will begin . Apparently your Daddy is going against his word to your Mommy and  is not willing to give you back.So needless to say your Mommy will be here soon . I don't understand why they can't just get alone for your sake . I think it's outside voices clouding your Daddy's mind . Like your other Grandmother Regina . And perhaps your Daddy will benefit more with him having you . Some people are like  that . Not saying he is but that is what is seems like with him not calling me back or letting us see you .He can try all he wants to , but we are not going anywhere .We love you and this is not over , and hopefully it will all make some since soon.  
                                                                        I love you
                                                                               Always ,
                                                                                          Meme

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Good morning Buddy, How are you today ? I Woke up thinking about you today. I  really missed when you would stay with us . Being able to have you wake up and then we would hear your little foot steps run across the floor heading to our room. You would come in and crawl in between  of Pawpaw and myself and we would both look at you .You would have a smile on your face and you would say "TV" which in Damian talk meant "watch the movie ,Up please" .  Then we would wake up and watch it with you.  I think we all can recite that word for word . I know there would be times after you would go back home the your Mommy and Daddy would be like "Come on . Can't ya'll have him watch something else?"But you know what being a Grandma means we can spoil you and sent you home.Hee Hee I love you Buddy I will talk to you later.
                                                                                                                                               Meme

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Hey Buddy ,

                 How are you today? I just wanted to let you know that Pawpaw and I  will be taking a trip here in the next week or so, and please forgive me for it  may look like I didn't  write to you . But believe me I will . I just wont have my computer with me more than likely , and  I will transfer them onto the computer  when I get back home .  So I will be around you ever still.I know me saying this doesn't and  really shouldn't matter to the fact that you can read yet basically so you will know we always have you on our mind

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Hey Baby, Yesterday was so crazy here, so sorry I didn't get a chance to make it to the computer. I will do my best to be here for you everyday.I spoke with your Mommy yeaterday she said she will be coming to get you before your Daddy goes to training . Well, that was the plan altogether to let you see your Daddy. Now what will when she gets here.... is a different story .  I hope your Daddy will see that and know that being with your Mommy is the best thing for you . I hope it will all work itself out in the end. You need both of your parents.I could not be there for your mom all the time when see was little  due to family issuse and I do hate to see things repeat themselves .I have tried so hard to change life patterns but sometimes it is hard not to fall in the foot steps left before you by your parents on the path of life.Some trails are too deep to not fall into. I apologize for that . But we all are free to make our own way in life .And you need to know that your Mommy will be here for you. I just don't understand why your Daddy and Grandma Regina wont return my phone calls . They know we want to see you .I love you Buddy,        Always Meme

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Hey Damian,I have not heard anything from Regina or your Daddy ,I don't have their home phone number so I can't call them there.I do how ever keep trying Regina's cell phone,but still she does not answer it , I think it is because she doesn't want to talk to me don't know why. Other than she must know it's wrong what they are doing by keeping you away from your mother and our family . Your Great grandmother Gene is worried about you too . We all miss you .I don't want to be sad I am starting to tear up from all of this ,so I will tell you of our day to keep from crying . Pawpaw has been working on the R E O Speedwagon he started painting it today,well painting more of it.I had to take your Aunt Cherokee to the Doctor's office her stomach has been hurting her I think it's stress over missing you ,and not knowing what is going to  happen I have my days I just try to keep it together the best I can .And I know your Mom is beside her self with worry she cries on the phone and it just breaks my heart.I hope you are well and you are always   on our minds.We love you dearly  Meme

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Hey ,I don't know what will happen ,but I found your other grandmother Regina on Facebook and I sent her this message.
 (Regina, I have tried but with no luck.So I will try again from one grandmother to another.What is going on here?I hold no ill will toward anyone I just would like to be apart of Damian's life. Why wont someone call me back.I would like to spend time with him if I may.Please)           I will keep trying.I love you, 
                                                  Meme,

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Hey ,I don't know what will happen ,but I found your other grandmother Regina on Facebook and I sent her this message.
 (Regina, I have tried but with no luck.So I will try again from one grandmother to another.What is going on here?I hold no ill will toward anyone I just would like to be apart of Damian's life. Why wont someone call me back.I would like to spend time with him if I may.Please) 

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Aunt Brittany,Mommy,Meme and your Aunt Cherokee

You and Mommy 

That is you playing horse with Pawpaw,

Pawpaw and you.

My beautiful Grandson .

And of course Cody Red.

Hey baby boy how are you today?I have been a bit busy today .I sold some Jewelry and ,lets see um .. Auntie Cherokee went to the Natural Science Center with her friend Katie and her parents.And now they are gone roller skating in Asheboro . Pawpaw has been relaxing pretty much all day .I know Boring ........Right? Well I hope you have had a wonderful day thou. With a bunch of playing with toys and a lot of hugs and kisses. I just wish some of them could be coming us. I hope you are safe . We love you Damian.....I will write to you again tomorrow.But until then Sweet dreams,Happy dreams,Pleasant Dreams.

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Hey baby boy how are you today?I have been a bit busy today .I sold some Jewelry and ,lets see um .. Auntie Cherokee went to the Natural Science Center with her friend Katie and her parents.And now they are gone roller skating in Asheboro . Pawpaw has been relaxing pretty much all day .I know Boring ........Right? Well I hope you have had a wonderful day thou. With a bunch of playing with toys and a lot of hugs and kisses. I just wish some of them were coming us.We love you Damian.....I will write to you again tomorrow.But until then Sweet dreams,Happy dreams,Pleasent Dreams

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Hey Little Buddy , How are you today? We are fine here except for the fact that I  still havn't heard a word from your Daddy or from your Grandma Regina.I keep trying with no luck. I don't know why they won't call me back or at least answer the phone, or send a message via E-mail all I want is to be able to know you are okay. So I can tell your Mommy you are okay. I have even left messages inviting your Daddy and you to dinner. I thought that way he wouldn't be threatened or scared (which I don't know why he would be scared).I just don't understand all of this. Why won't someone call me? Are you okay?   Mommy is so worried about you . Are you even with your Daddy and his mom? I can't think like that . Well lets try to change the subject, shall we? The fish in the little pond Pawpaw and I put in are doing fine . Lou our tiny turtle is growing just like you I bet. I hope you have had a good day today , and I hope you have a good night.I will look for you in my dreams .We love you so much Damian.Goodnite little buddy. Sweet dreams,happy dreams, pleasant dream we love you .....

Letters to Damian 8/11/11

Hey Buddy , How are you today? I went to work with Pawpaw at the shop to day and worked on the wheels of the R E O Speedwagon. Being there reminded me of when I would take you to the shop and how you would love to ride on the big Oliver trackers with Pawpaw. You used to love to ride them .You also would like to get inside the big trucks and pretend to drive them.

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Hey Buddy, I just talked to your Mommy see told me see tried to call Regina again and that she wouldn't answer the cell phone so your Mommy left a message, and that Regina or your Daddy won't call her back. I don't know what they say , or what they tell you ,  but you need to know your Mommy loves you and is trying to get in touch with your Daddy so she can come and get you when he goes in the National Guard in October.She wanted him to spend some time with you. She wanted your Daddy to see you before training. As soon as she dropped you off he changed his number and Regina wont answer her calls or mine.Mommy is so sad without you there.I have tried to call  Regina she wont answer me either and left messages that I would like to see you,but I get no reply.  I will continue todo so until some one tells me why this is happening. Your Daddy once told me that he would never keep you from your Mommy ,but it is not working out like that.I think he is afraid that she will keep you from him so he is keeping you from her.I hate that they are not together, but these things happen to the best of people.I hope that this all works out while you are still young and that you wont have to go threw life without one of them or even both of them.I know your are only 2 now  somehow I just wanted to let you know that Your Mommy didn't give you up! They took you from her! Believe me if she would of known this was going to happen she never would of brought you to see Daddy. She trusted him and he lied to her.I tried to tell her that this might happen but she believed him .Now her heart is breaking for you  she misses you so.......much. I hope you are playing and having a fun day today , and I hope you are not to sad about missing your Mommy .Just know above all SHE LOVES YOU.......and she misses you too.Just like we all do .I live only 15minutes form Regina's but she does like me and I have been nothing but nice to her .She told me one time when she was at my house that it wasn't her it is her husband that didn't like me.Her true colors now show .We are your blood and we love you more than you could know.  I would not trade you for anything and If I could I would do anything to have this all go away so you could have your Mommy and Daddy back no fighting. Just love baby boy . But Meme can't and I'm sorry.  I love you

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Well ,My darling boy another day has pasted .Pawpaw and I were talking about you today when he got home from work.We were remembering last fall when we all played in that huge pile of leaves he gathered up for you.I took pictures but for some reason I lost them on the camera(darn camera) which breaks my heart they were so... Adorable .It was nice all of us playing in the leaf pile. To much fun! Well my darling I love you bunches and bunches like Captain Crunches Peanut Butter all the time.I used to say that to your Mommy and your Aunt Brittany when they were little. And this also.... Sweet dreams,Happy dreams, I love you good night, Meme

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Well ,I decided to have a blog for you ,so this way there will be a collection of thoughts just to you .One day when you are big enough to read you will know that you are always in my heart and that you will also know that no matter what should happen that you will always have me here.I wish things were different and your parents could work things out,BUT after all they are just kids themselves.(well perhaps not know but they are young none the less) I hope you are okay today for some reason I am  sad .I hope you are having fun where ever you are.I tried calling Regina but like normal she wont answer the phone and your Daddy wont email back,so that is why we are here.This way I can talk to you .I love you Damian.Meme loves you and I hope that when I get to see you again you will remember who I am.One minute you were here and they next you were gone.You are in our hearts Pawpaw and Cherokee miss you too.Oh , and of course CodyRed misses you too.

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I awoke from my sleep and you were on my mind.So I decided to write you a letter.I don't know what is happening with your Mommy and Daddy but I just wanted you to know that we miss you terribly .Pawpaw misses you and Auntie Cherokee misses you ,and we love you very much! Hopefully one day when all of this badness is over between them we can see your smiling little face again and hear your giggle.We love you Damian and we always will.