Letter to Damian

Hey Bud ,
Sorry again it has taken so long to get back to you . With Pawpaw John's Mom being in the Hospital , and with me being up there with her everyday I have gotten worn down from pushing myself so hard to keep everything going I have gotten sick . Which was bad over Christmas . Your Mommy came down and tried very hard too see you but they would take you somewhere when she would go over to your Grandma Regina's house . She was very nice to Them on the phone but they would take you where see couldn't get to see you . We miss you so much and she tries so hard but they wont let her see you . She even filed a report with the police but they couldn't even find you . So know she went back home and the Police will continue to search for you . We will not give up and please don't think for one instant that we have . I know I told you I would write to you every day  but that has proven to be more difficult than I thought . I am sorry for breaking that promise to you when I started this Blog I said I would write to you everyday , and I know I have not .But I think about you everyday . And I leave messages on the only cell phone number I have for Regina ,I hear her voice say leave me a message and I will gt back to you . But she never does ... I hope you are well and happy .
                Love always your Meme ,
                                Billie Jo Craig

Letter to Damian

Hello Damian ,

A little something in your stocking
from Us.

I must apologize for my absence . It is a trying time for me right now . Christmas is right around the corner and your Birthday the day after and it breaks our hearts not to be able to see you and with that stress and heart break there is the fact that I am up at the hospital all day sitting with Pawpaw Johns mother she is deathly ill and I  fear she will be making her way to Summerland all too soon . She was out of her mind yesterday talking of sewing rooms and people coming to her room and watching her . She says she is afraid to sleep . Pawpaw stays with her at night and I during the day so she is not alone . I don't understand such a fast decline in her health .  She could feed herself and know she can't even reach for her own drink .She talks of such strangeness my heart breaks . She is to have surgery on Tuesday the 20th but I fear that wont happen and if it does she may not make it threw it her heart may stop I fear it is already so weak . I can't do anything except be there for her . You would think keeping busy would leave me missing you less but it is just the opposite I feel as if I am neglecting you from my absence of writing  to you  . Please forgive me little man .
We love ever so much and miss you more with every passing day . Much love to you during this Yule my darling.
                                      Brightest Blessings to you ,

                                               Always Meme

Letter to Damian

Letter to Damian

Letter to Damian

Hey My little Darling ,
 I hope you are well .I have been at the Hospital with Pawpaw John's Mommy she is very sick .I am there all day long and I don't get home till really late .I have been up there all week , and I am so tired but I still wanted to tell you I love you  Angel . Sweet dreams my little man .
                                                  Love Always Meme

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Hey Buddy ,
 This is your silly Auntie Cherokee playing with her new Black light . I just thought I would show it to you . Giggle . Any way have you seen Santa yet . I hope you get to every little boy needs to see Santa at Christmas time . I have your presents all ready I don't quit know what what to do with them . I can't bring them to your Grandma Regina AND your step Pawpaws Eddies house because he doesn't like me and for crying out loud if she wont return my calls or emails I know they wont like me dropping by .I will just check with your Mom and she what she thinks. Well any way I am making cookies so I have to go for now .I love you so....
                                    Always , Meme

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Hello My Darling Damian,
 It has been really busy around here since the new house arrived . Your Auntie Cherokee has turned 15 , Thanks giving has come and gone . And you will soon be 3 years old . WOW ! How time flies by so quickly . I have your birthday and Christmas all ready for you . I know I wont be able to see you which breaks my heart and other hearts as well . You see I have found out that not only do I not get to see you but neither does any one else.You they are keeping you away from all of us .Your Great grandmother Gene who I thought was apart of  everything doesn't get to see you either . Your Auntie Brittany misses you dearly along with the rest of us . We know one day you will seek us out and we will always be here for you . Your Mommy is working really hard on getting you back . She has such a big heart for those who are doing her so wrong now .She never wanted to keep you and your Daddy apart  she knows a son needs his father but he also needs his Mommy too . Like I have said before she wanted you to spend time with him before he went to training but he and his mother found out that he gets more money from Uncle Sam if he kept you so he kept you from her ,and us . Its sad that money is more important to him than keeping family ties . I say this because I have tried and tried to contact them and they don't care to contact me back . For all I know your Grandma Regina just deletes my calls and doesn't even listen to them . I have cried and begged to see you and for me that that is a big thing to do . I have always been strong willed and never asked for anything from any one until this happened . I just don't understand how people can be so hateful and cruel to those who love you too . I mean if someone could just call and let us know you Why. What did we ever do to them to have them take you away from us?
I will always keep trying . I will never give up ! You are a wonderful little boy who is missed deeply by all of us and  Heaven help the person who tries to stand in the way of your Mother when she comes .
                                              Love Always ,

Codie is soooo... sad she misses you .

                                                      Meme and the Rest of your Family..........

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Hey there Damian ,
    I hope you are doing well today . I had a dream about you and your Daddy last night .He was sad  . I am not sure why , but I was happy I got to see you . You were so much bigger in my dream than the last time I saw you  .  Before your Daddy took you away from us . You were happy  in my dream too , running around and playing . It was a nice dream to have .I only wish it was real . Who knows maybe I stepped out of a dream and It was real .To be able to give you a hug is all I would like . To see your face and to hear your laugh .To be able to hold you in my arms and give you a big hug . I miss you . All I have left  of you  are memories and a few pictures . I cherish them .You are a sweet boy and your Meme loves you with all my heart . I love you .
                                                                        Always ,

You and your Mommy at Great Grandma Gene's

                                                                         Meme

Letter to you ,Damian

Hey Little Buddy ,

 Your Auntie Brittany come over for a few days we decorated the tree . How do you like it ? And yes that is a train running around the bottom of the tree . I always wanted a train going around the bottom of the Christmas tree , and Pawpaw just so happened to have alot of trains . I like it pretty well . Brittany even baked a pumpkin pie for our Thanksgiving dinner that we had on Saturday. 2 days after turkey day. Why should we be like everyone else , I ask you ? Well we went to Boone for Thanksgiving Dinner with Pawpaw John's Family . Your Auntie gave me some more pictures of you when you were littler than you are now .
        Love Always ,
                         Meme 

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Hey there kiddo,
     I hope you are well I had to reconfigure my computer again I hope this time it works better than the last time .  I hope you have a wonderful Thanksgiving tomorrow and eat lots of good stuff . I also hope you are getting lots of hugs and just know that we are thinking of you all the time. I love you .

We love you .....

                                                 Always, Meme

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    Well hi there,
This is your auntie Cherokee. I have written you one other blog before, and thought i would do another one. I miss you bunches and bunches like Captain Crunches. I HAVE A RAGING COLD SOAR. It hurts badly, it hurts so much I didn't go to school. Shh. My birthday is in two days.. ill be fifteen. Yay. I'm so happy. c: But because Mimi and pawpaw are going to the mountains on my birthday.. I wont get my presents.. :c so they gave them to me early. I got shoes I have always wanted ,and I got a jewelry box. I love them. I also got skating socks. I love to skate and i pretty good at it too. I just hope that one day I can teach you how to skate like me. <3. I miss you and hope to see you soon.

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Hello D ,
 How are you ? I am doing okay Pawpaw John's Mom is sick and in the hospital .She is having trouble breathing and her heart rate is was not too great ,But she seems to be better for now . I have been working on a puzzle .It is all most finished .I think I will be done with it tomorrow . I will send a picture than too. It glows in the dark , but I don't know how to show that to you .(ha ha ) I know .I know too funny . And here is a picture if Belferd you never had the pleasure of meeting him .Cherokee's Guinea pig .Isn't he cute ?
                       Well my darling I hope you sleep and have dreams of us while we dream of you ....
                             Love Always ,
                                       Meme ,Pawpaw John , Auntie Cherokee and of course Codiered....

He has a case of the red eye
I tried to fix it but I couldn't ....Sorry
He is a sweetie ......

It will look better finished.... 

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Hello D , 
 How are you ? I am doing okay Pawpaw John's Mom is sick and in the hospital .She is having trouble breathing and her heart rate is was not too great ,But she seems to be better for now . I have been working on a puzzle .It is all most finished .I think I will be done with it tomorrow . I will send a picture than too. It glows in the dark , but I don't know how to show that to you .(ha ha ) I know .I know too funny . And here is a picture if Belferd you never had the pleasure of meeting him .Cherokee's Guinea pig .Isn't he cute ?

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Hey D,
 I hope you are well today. I hope you are getting all the hugs you need today and even some you don't . Smile .I talked to your Mommy today she will be getting a new car after Christmas . Well , new to her . She sounds fine . She is working really hard to get all of this mess with your Daddy taking care of and over with .I have to take Codiered to the Vet today . I know she is not going to like that . Well I have to go for now but ,I will be back  later .

             Always ,Meme

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These are on the wall at your Great Grandma Genes& Aunt Brittany's house.

Hello Little man ,
I  hope you are well , I just worry about you . I went to your Auntie Brittany's today she showed me some of the things she is working on .She creates plushies . And really nice ones I may add . I will have her send you some pictures of what they look like . Neat O.......( IF YOU ASK ME) I love you Bud.
                                              Love Always ,

        Meme

                                                                                     

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 Hello Damian,

It is a rainy , dark day with just a  slightly spuradic shower here and there . I guess there is no playing outside for you today . It is most definitely  a day for watching movies ( Up! was your favorite ) and maybe getting in a nap or two . I have to go out later to pick up your Auntie Cherokee from school either for Drivers Ed. or Drama . I know I am horrible for not remembering but I have so many things to pick her up from and it changes from day to day , even though she gave me a schedule . Well  , It was Drama but she will have to stop Drama to take Drivers Ed. so I don't rightly know which one it is today . She doesn't all ways tell me before she walks out the door in the morning . Giggle . Well the showers have now changed to a steady rain . There is a cool front moving in and they say it will be bringing some pretty strong weather but you never can tell til it arrives . I am still working on the spear room . Guest room or office? Who can tell .That I am afraid I wont know til it is finished . I love you little man you are always in my thoughts ...
                                Always ,  Meme

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 Hello Damian ,

Auntie Brittany

 I talked with your Auntie Brittany today . She is well and may come to visit . I will be going to see her Thursday so she can get some things to make a cheese cake with . Your Auntie Cherokee will be 15 on Thanksgiving Day this year . ( She hates that  when her birthday is the same day as Thanksgiving ) She will be taking Drivers ed . this year at school . She will be driving soon . Man how time flies .I know you must be getting so big .We miss you so little man .            
                                                 Love Always ,
                                                  Meme , Pawpaw John ,  Cherokee
                                                                      CodieRed                                                                     

Pawpaw John & Me

Auntie Cherokee

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 Hello Damian ,

Auntie Brittany

 I talked with your Auntie Brittany today . She is well and may come to visit . I will be going to see her Thursday so she can get some things to make a cheese cake with . Your Auntie Cherokee will be 15 on Thanksgiving Day this year . ( She hates that  when her birthday is the same day as Thanksgiving ) She will be taking Drivers ed . this year at school . She will be driving soon . Man how time flies .I know you must be getting so big .We miss you so little man .            
                                                 Love Always ,
                                                  Meme , Pawpaw John ,  Cherokee
                                                                      CodieRed                                                                       

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Auntie Cherokee

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Hey Damian,
   I left another message on your Grandmother Regina's cell phone today . I simply stated that I would like to see you seeing how your Birthday and Christmas are right around the corner . I left my home number on her phone , but I know she wont call me back she never does . And if by some freak change she does I will be so surprised.

Where did you go?

Don't eat the leaves .... Silly.

Peek a boo ! I see you ...

So , It was warm today . I hope you are getting to play in the leaves . I know you liked it when we did here that is where those pictures came from last year . I  miss you little man  .
                      Much Love Always,
                                    Meme

Wind is blowing...

Hello my Darling grandson ,
 I hope that this letter finds  you  well , on  such a windy day . I found all my pictures of you I had lost on my computer . I wasn't able to recovery everyone but I found all of yours and (really...) those are all I wanted . That is the only way I get to see you anymore . I am going to go make some cookies We wish you were here to lick the bowl with Pawpaw and Rokee . We love you Bud...

                                                                    Us.

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Hey Bud ,

It is behind Melvin the Marmon...

  Here is the new house......

Dinning room area.....

new walk way....4 tons of wash rock put in by hand

And here is some of what the inside looks like I am not finished yet I still have the extra room to do that is the catch all for everything else until I get Pawpaws Man cave back in order. That is where most of the stuuf in the spear room will go ... I can't wait for you to see it in person .I can dream can't I?

Love Always,

Meme

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Well, my boy it has been ever so crazy around here..... Let me see a week before we were to move I was messing around on this silly computer of mine and some how managed to delete a lot of my pictures and am now in the process of trying to recover them . And then on top of that heart break .... I know it may be no big deal to anyone else but that is the only way I get to see you . Now since no one will return my calls or emails . Well anyway , so I then find out that we are getting the new house so that left me with no cable which in return left me with no internet for 2 weeks . I could not write to you and that made me sad also , but here I am now sitting in my new office and I am writting to you . So now I am happier than I was .I will be putting the house in order for the next few days , and than I will take pictures of it for you so you can see where Meme lives .Hopefully you will see it long before you are old enough to work a computer and may stumble across this surfing the web one day . I love you Damian and I always will .

I am back!!!! Letters to Damian...

Hey D ,
 Sorry It has been awhile we are just getting every thing hooked up in new house. I can't wait to show you pictures . I know that will be the only way you will get to see it for now . I am going to go check on some things and we will be moving in ,in a few days and when I get done with that I will catch you up on that has been going on until than ....
                                                    Love Always ,
                                                               Meme

My Dearest ......

Hello my sweet ,
 I am sorry I didn't make it in time to write to you yesterday I was at the hospital for quit some time . Pawpaw John's mother is doing fine . We hope it stays that way . Any way how are you on this rainy day ? I had a dream about you . You were lost and your mommy and I could not find you . I woke up with such a sadness washing over me . I tried calling your Grandmother Regina again this morning and of course she would not answer the cell phone . It is things like that ,that leave me feeling so empty . I don't know why she can't at least talk to me it is as if she has no manners, no feelings for one who loves you so much . I have only tried to be a friend to her and her family . It leads my to think if they treat someone who means  you and them no harm , how are they treating you ? But I can't think that way it will drive me crazy if I even think anyone would be  miss treating  you . Not saying that they are just I wish they would not cut us all out of your life like this . I miss you Damian .
                                                                          Love Always ,

                                                                                   Meme

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Hey Damian ,
 Pawpaw and I just got back from Charlotte . There is a hospital there that his mother is in . She had a heart attack yesterday . She will be ok for now , they have to do a operation in the morning and we will be heading back that way early so he can be there when she gets out of surgery . So I am really tired and this wont be a very long . I just wanted to let you know that we love you ,

                                                  Always , Meme

My Dearest Grandson just a piece of me,

Samhain(pronounced Sow-in, Sah-vin, or Sahm-hayn), known most popularly as Halloween, marks the end of the third and final harvest, is a day to commune with and remember the dead, and is a celebration of the eternal cycle of reincarnation. Samhain (once again Halloween) is the most coveted sabbat by the Wiccan (and many Pagan) religions.     In the European traditions, Samhain is the night when the old Goddies, and the Crone Goddess mourns him deeply for the next six weeks.  The popular image of her as the old Halloween hag menacingly stirring her cauldron comes from the Celtic belief that alldead souls return to her cauldron of  life, death, and rebirth to awaitreincarnation.      Halloween, plain and simple is our favorite time of year. A true time for witches, Witchcraft itself, and Wiccans alike who feel that on this night the separation between the physical and spiritual realities is it's least guarded and it's veil the thinnest. It is a time for dimensional openings and workings, it is a somber holiday, one of dark clothes and thoughts for the dead, it is said to be the time when those of necromantic talents can speak with the dead and it is certainly a time to remember ones own dead. Witches believe it is a time of endings of relationships and bad situations and it is the time when one can see the glimmer of hope in the future. There are as many concepts attached to this holiday as any other, truly a time of remembrance of our ancestors and all those who have gone before.        I just want to share a bit of me so if we should not meet again you will know a piece of me and where you come from . If you will it .....It can be. This may not make any sense or it  may make all the sense in the world .....                                  Brightest Blessing the one...... Meme

My Dearest ......

SAMHAIN (October 31)
At Samhain, the Wicca say farewell to the God even though he readies to be reborn at Yule. This grand sabbat, also known as Feast of the Dead ,Feast of Apples, All Hallows, and of course Halloween, once marked the time of sacrifice. This was the time when animals were slaughtered to ensure food throughout the winter. The God fell as well to ensure our continuing existence. This is a time of reflection and coming to terms with the one thing in life which we have no control - death. Wiccans feel that on this night the separation between the physical and spiritual realities is it's least guarded and it's veil the thinnest.  It is a time for dimensional openings and workings, and also the celebration of the death of the year king. It is a somber holiday, one of dark clothes and thoughts for the dead, it is said to be the  time when those of necromantic talents can speak with the dead and it is certainly a time to remember ones dead. It is a time of endings of relationships and bad situations and it is the time when one can see the glimmer of hope in the future. There are as many concepts attached to this holiday as any other,  truly a time of remembrance of our ancestors and all those who have gone before.                 

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Hey Damian ,

     Pawpaw John and your Aunt Cherokee and I went to Boone where Pawpaw grew up to see the colors when the leaves change . But I think we missed it , but here are some pictures of the trees for you .I know there is a blueish haze on them well that is because of it being the Blue Ridge Mountains .I hear tell the haze is created from gases coming from the Pine Trees . I wish you could of seen them too ,so I took pictures .
                                                                 I love you always ,
                                                                            Meme.....