I hope you are well . This Spring I find I am just a bit more sad than usual . You see it seems as if all of my neighbors now have grandchildren and families coming over and they play in the street riding their bikes and scooters and bonce their balls . I hear them laugh and squeal because they are so happy . My heart breaks because I can't have that with you . When you were small you were here and now you are not .So many years have passed and will continue to do so . You probably don't even remember us any more . I know no one talks to you about us and if they do I am sure it is not in a positive manner and I am sorry for that . We did nothing wrong ,but yet we are being punished . Having such a gift like you in our lives and ..... your gone and no one knows where you are . And when I ask they refuse to say . Its..... "Joe wont have it "! Like what did I do to him ? Other than bring him into my trust and man did he hurt me . He hurt everyone around me . He continues to do it even today . I have done nothing but reach out to him and his family and they shut me down at every turn . I have no hard feelings except I have an empty place were you use to be . I have my memories and no one can take them away from me like he did you . I am sad from missing you . I will not stop writing to you . I just can't do it as often as I would like because I get so sad . I wonder about you everyday . I wonder if you are happy . I wonder if you know who your mommy is . I have a friend who has a grandson your age and I wonder if you are as tall as he is . I wonder how you are doing in school , if you have lots of friends . Do you laugh like you used to ? Of course you don't because you are a big boy now .Your 8 going on 9 this December . The last time I seen you ,you were so small and you were crying because you didn't want to leave . I didn't want you to have to go , but it was not up to me. I love you Damian . Always and always .
Your Meme Billie Jo
