For you little one

 I LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS WILL NO ONE WILL CHANGE THAT !!!

Hey little buddy

I had an odd feeling last night that I could find a recent picture of  you , so I jumped up and ran to my computer . I searched for and then there you were I was overjoyed to the fact that I  could see you . There were two pictures I hadn't seen before . And I almost feel like me writing this to you and if your father should see it will find who put it up and make sure I can't see any more pictures of you .But, I have been scared long enough . I mean he already won't let those of us see you or be apart of your life ,for whatever reason ,who  are also your family and love you ever so much . He has taking you from your mother and in return me ,your paw paw, your aunts . We all miss you . But I was grateful to be able to see you even if it is just a picture . I am grateful. You are getting to be so big . D , It is so hard to write every time I do I cry . Thats way I don't write to you every day like I said I would in the BEGINNING of this blog to you . I didn't know then that It would be so hard , because I miss you so much . I don't know how your mother does it . I dont know what she is doing with her life ,she too has stopped talking to me . I dont know why ? I miss her too . but I miss you more . Is that bad? I have my memories of us playing in the leaves that last autumn you were here Oh so  years ago . You would ride on PawPaws tractor with him .You loved that tractor . We still have it  I think he is saving it for you .                                                        

                                                                                      

      

My darling D.

Some things it is just so hard to say with out busting into tears . I always hope you are well and happy .

even doing this I am on the verge of breaking down . I only hope one day you find this and  in doing so you will find me . I love you dearly . ALWAYS Your Meme ,
                                                 Billie Jo Craig 

Missing you

Hey Buddy ,
        I hope this finds you well . We are fine . Missing you ,but fine . I just thought I would
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       P  a line to let you know once again how much we love you . Your Father has cut us all completely out of your life . When I had my brief  messaging conversation in January at 1:30 ish in the am .That he wasnt going to let me see you unless he said I could . I don't know why he is being such a dink ,but what ever . I will still leave you messages this way  in hopes one day you will find them . We love you and miss you dearly.
                                       Love Your Meme.
                                                   

Letters to Damian

Hello My darling boy , 
          
           I miss you deeply . It has been such a nice day today I wish you were here . I watered the Tomato  garden and your Pawpaw and I went to Spencer to see a friend . I so wish we knew where you were so we could see you , but your daddy is making sure that doesn't happen . On a different note . A happier note . Your Auntie Cherokee and I laid in the hammock in the back yard for awhile . 
 Your Pawpaw bought a bunch of strawberries yesterday and I finally got to try my hand at Jam making  for the first time . 

  Do you like Strawberries ? Your mommy did when she was your age . Your Auntie Brittany could not stay out of them while I was making the Jam . (Giggle ) Every time I turned around she was eating another Strawberry. She is a big Strawberry . (Giggle) CodieRed is getting so fat . You don't remember her I'm sure ,and Pyewackit is a mess too . We also have a new animal around the yard I will try to get a picture of it . Pawpaw calls it a whistle pig . You may know it by its common name Ground hog . (Giggle ) 


Well little man I need to get some rest I have had a busy day . Tomorrow I wash the pets... Fun . 

CodieRed and Pyewackit a couple months ago.


                                                               Love Always Meme, 

Bugs at the Zoo

Hello little buddy , I hope this finds you . I love you we all do and the last time I spoke to your father he said he had no intentions on bringing you back to us , But I know one day You will . I will share this with as many factors I can . Just know that we love you and miss you dearly .

 So many Bugs I hope you get to see these in person with your Daddy
even though he is keeping you away from us I wish you any the best to him for he can not help his evil ways .

 . Could you imagine taking a ride on it ?

The Response

After years of trying to reach your Daddy , this is what I get .  I have every single message I have sent tohim and everyone else I have made phone calls and left emails and I have copied them for you to read and the attorneys/court system .I have been polite every time and will remain to do so .

This is the response I get just know at 1:10 in the am.
If you don't mind leave me, my girlfriend, my family, and my son alone. I have my reasons for why I don't/won't have anything to do with you and everyone else. Obviously I don't want y'all to hurt my son anymore so stay away.. Stop messaging/bothering anyone and everyone related or acquainted with/toward me. Thanks.

This was my response back to him .  -I can't do that .Much love-We will never stop looking for him.His mother misses him,do you think you can hide him forever?
 And this is what he sent back to me . But bare in mind the whole story isn't being told by your Daddy .Yes your mother did go to N.Y.  with you but she didn't take you away from him he came to see you  two times  while you were there . And you did stay in a shelter for a short time that's where he left you both .And both our Family and his has family there . He is trying to make it sound worse than it actually was .

His response , (k. n fyi a mother isn't someone tht take a child n moves away from family n friends and his father.. Doesn't put her child in a homeless shelter. and another fyi look all u guys want.. Unless I say yall can see him or come near him yall wont.. and thts court ordered and in MY!!!!!! custody paperwork.. but ok yall do wat yall want.. Bye)

Still Missing You ........

 Good day Young man Long time no letter ,

  I hope to find you well and One day we hope to find you . I hope you are doing well I hope  school  is going great for you . Your Mommy came down at Christmas and we searched for you until she has to go home . It is so hard when we don't know where to look . Papa John and Aunt Cherokee seen you in Walmart at Thanksgiving but by time they realized it was you when they turned around you where gone . Your Daddy is  very TRICKY . He was with his girl friend and I guess they scooped you up when they seen Papa John . I don't know why they would be scared of us we love you .?. Well It is January and time sure does fly by fast these days . Your Aunt Cherokee is a Junior in High School , but you knew that for one of my last letters to you . It hard to keep track of whats been said and what hasn't . I know I could go back and read letters I have sent you but I find it hard to not miss you more when I do that and I get mad at what Your Daddy is doing . I just don't understand why he wants to keep you away from us . A boy needs his family ALL OF HIS FAMILY . Enough on that did you like the little bit of snow we got ? That could be a very silly question I am assuming you are still in North Carolina ,the truth is we don't know where you are . But know this no matter where you are we Love you and will always love you . 

                                                   Always Your Meme,