The Christmas Train

Hello my little man , 

 It is Christmas time again and you will soon be another year older. You will be 4 years old . Wow how time flies . I hope you are happy . Here is a Little something for you . Pawpaw and I put the Train track together and well here it is . I love you little man . Miss you soooo much .We love you bunches and bunches like Captain Crunches .

Damian ,

 I reached out yet again to your other grandmother .(Regina I have been trying and trying . I recently had a mammogram and I was told that there is something and I have to now have farther test done to see what is going on . I have an ultrasound coming up and I am telling you this because I don't know what is going to happen next and I am asking you to talk to Joe ,Let Damian know me before its to late for us to be a family . The kids have to go through what they must . I ask to let me be in Damian's life .) And to your Aunt Kasandra  .Only time will tell if I get a response. You are getting so big my boy .Meme misses you so very much . You are looking well . Your Mommy and I are trying to find you . I hope you have a good birthday today . I also hope you had a big Christmas . I hope to see you soon.
Love always Meme

Letter to Damian

Hey Buddy ,

  Sorry it has been so long I don't get on here to much since I started working . Well, it is October which is Halloween time ...yeah !!! It's my favorite time of year but I also get really sad because it makes me think of you . I have not seen you in so long now .It has been 2yrs . now .I still keep trying to get in touch with your Dad but alas no luck . I just don't understand why they won't call back or return an email. Your Mommy is trying to get in touch with him too . She had a conference with his attorney and she is suppose to be able to talk to you twice a week but she is having a hard time getting his numbers too. Hopefully they will be able to work things out and we can see each other again soon but until than this will have to be the only way I can communicate with you .And maybe some day you will be able to read these letters and know that I love you and miss you very much . You will be starting school soon .Kindergarten .Wow time goes by so fast .I can remember when you were here with us and we would play in the leaves in the yard . That is way Fall is my favorite time of year . I spent it with you . I love you .

Letter for Damian

Hello my Darling little man , 
      I hope you are doing good . I am working on the weekends and have been very busy . Pawpaw is going to Indiana for an Auction Monday this will be the first time I have not gone with him and I will miss seeing all our friends that haul the cars . I will see if I can get him to take some pictures of the cars for you . I talked to your Mommy and she is working on a farm . I think .?. It was hard to understand her . I think her phone was having some problems . I will talk to her again soon .I hope you are getting to talk to her too. I miss you ,we all miss having you around . I sent your Daddy a friend request on Facebook but as always I have not heard back from him it has been over a month now. I don't understand why he wont let us see you . Your Aunt Cherokee is starting school today is will be in the 10th grade this year . Here is a picture of my cat the girls and Pawpaw got me for Mothers Day .

I LOVE YOU , Meme

Letter to Damian,

Letter to Damian,

Letter to Damian,

Hello my sweet boy ,

You and your Daddy ....

    I hope this letter finds you well . I am at a loss for words and apologize for my absence . I hope you ca forgive me . We have been experiencing so much loss these last few months .Papa John has lost his mom and I lost an Uncle and another is very sick with cancer and I hope and pray that he will be strong enough and strong enough to win his battle with cancer. But one good thing is I reached out to your Daddy yet again he has not replied to me yet and it has been a few weeks now but in finding him I did find a picture of you and he . I like it,  you both are very handsome I just hate that he wont respond to my pleas of connection. I don't know what they are afraid of I just would like to be a part of your life . I don't even know if you are getting to see your Mommy like she said they had agreed a upon . Pawpaw John and I miss you and love you very much .Here is the picture of the two of you .