Tuesday, February 28, 2017

Little Man

                                                                     
                                                                             
     

Hey little man ,
 
   Your mom called me yesterday and she was so upset. Apparently she has been working while staying with some friends and was waiting on her tax return so she could move out and your father has done something to involve child support , while that is all fine and good with the exception that no one will tell her or me where you are . (the good thing about that is now she can find out information on him and you  ) As a grandparent in this state  I have no legal rights to information on you through the system . I am sure she does not mind paying child support it is the fact they she still does not know where you are or have the ability to see you because of your dad Joe and your Grandma R continue hiding you away from her . Which is rather juvenile . Every time your mom comes to visit me we look for you and like vapor they vanish yet again in thin air .I hope they  are taking care of you .Giving you all that you need and want . I know your grandmother was working at the Dollar General in Asheboro and your Aunt K was working at the Waffle house in Randleman I don't know if they still do .I can not go into those places because of the hostility they give me when I did go in those places . I find them by sheer luck but neither would give me information to your father . I asked your grandma when I would be able to see you and all she said was " Joe will not have it !'' Like seriously what did I do to him ? He lived in my homes and I did all I could for him and your mom while they were still together , and I am the bad person here ? I don't think so . Fear has your dad hiding you from us , I think it is because he knows that he will  have to co-parent with your mom . She has rights but without knowing where you are , how can she get those rights ? It is going on 6 years now since any of us have seen you or known where you are or the people that I hope are taking care of you . Giving you all the love and happiness you deserve .They hide you away from us like you are a piece of property  . A pawn in some sort of sick game in which he gets to make the rules up as he goes along . In the meantime he is hurting your mother and you in the process . I hope without the knowledge of the pain he is causing to my daughter and inadvertently you as well . I mean to say if he is causing her pain on purpose he is more twisted than I though .You should not be keep away from your mom ( or us )she continues searching for you and she gets knocked down time after time after time but she still searches for you . She like many of us as humans has made mistakes , some questionable choices . ( Only questionable to others not to her , she has been hurt by your father and he continues to hurt her even now by keeping you hidden away from her )Your dad plays his games dirty with her  he does not fight fair . He should not be keeping you away from her like he is and has. She is not the bad person here he is . Parents together or apart should get along for the child's sake (I believe any way )  Your father loved her once as she loved him and he continues to wreck her and my heart breaks for that pain he is continuously causing her .It seems like any moment of happiness she has a chance to grab , somehow your father manages alone or with the help of others to try to that happiness . His ego is crushed because she was trying to find her own for the two of you and when she got her life together she brought you to him for a visit and he disappears with you without a trace  . My daughter is left heartbroken and stressed at her wit's end in loss of not knowing where you are or bringing able to see you , to hold you in her arms . That is a pain no parent should have to go through . That is a pain no person should have to go through . It breaks my heart to know that her heart breaks from the absence of you in her life . It is not right that she is being hurt over and over by your dad .He should try to repair the damage he is doing to her for the love of you in his heart .If for no other reason then to create a wholeness in you . To make you a happy with having your mom in your life . So has been through enough pain . She needs you . You are her life , and she is broken with out her little boy . I just dont understand how your daddy can not see that . Time has pasted and it is time to forgive and find away to move forward together .

                      I could not sleep and had to write to you . We love you so much Damian
                      we miss you deeply and I know one day you will be reunited with us.
                       
                                       May the light of day bring new perspective ......

                                                                                    Love you Always and Forever ,
                                                                                                Your Meme ,
                                                                                                           Billie Jo

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