Letter to Damian

Hello my wonderful little man ,
 I hope you are well ,your mommy came down to try to see you and like always there where no cars in the driveway and  , the house looked closed up like nobody has been around . She started crying and my heart just breaks for her and you .'' I don't know how they can be gone !'' '' I didn't tell anyone I was coming.?'' I just hope for her sake and for yours that Regina and Ed have not moved and took you with them . I just can't understand why Regina has not had they the human kindness to at least call me . I ,Just don't understand . What kind of animal can be so heartless as to not care , but a human being . It is so sad I see the world turning so fast .Life is just flying by . We have but this life. And people who abuse and use people .....It just breaks my heart. I know. I know . Sounds cheese but , It's true . Anyway enough of that or , I will start  to cry  and I can't do that right now because I am writing to you and after that I will go and see I Pawpaw John's mom Smitty needs anything. Seeing how is can't get out of bed . That's probably why one of the reasons I get to upset . Them keeping you away from her , (your mom) and myself ,Pawpaw, (Cherokee, Brittany your Aunts). It just kills me . You know I was so sad last week and I got down on my knees and prayed to my Lord and Lady to help to bring me strength to help my threw with  the pain of missing you ,the push to keep going... to stay strong for Pawpaw John . His mom  is so sick and the sweetest person you could ever meet. But you can't . Because your Daddy and Grandma Regina (maybe even your Great-Grandmother Gene took part in the greater schema of things to get you away from your mommy . ) have taken you away from us. And anyway I was so heart broken over events going on with Pawpaw's mom and the death of my mom several years ago and ICU  at Randolph Hospital . Soo Sadd.... I went to sleep to maybe dream of you and 2:3o that morning your mommy stepped threw my bed room door . So I know there is Magic .I know there is some awesome kind of power that one can channel .Why? But why is there so much hate and anger ?
 Just know in your heart that we love you and you will be back someday ......................
                                          Always your Meme , BillieJo Craig

Letter to Damian

Hey Bud,

 I hope this note finds you well . I have heard from your mommy she tells me that you daddy's attorney has called and he and your daddy wants to have a phone conference  with her at a later time . I have been really busy with Pawpaws Mom she is very sick but things are going well . It is a little crazy around here concerning the internet since someone else with a laptop  has moved in and  the cable modem is in her room since that was the computer room , I took it out so Pawpaws Mommy could get on my laptop.  I need to get some sort of wifi set up for the computers  we all share the one modem .I am afraid it will get tore up from the moving it back and forth . But I will think of something . Smitty that is Pawpaws Mommy's name, is wanting to buy herself   a small laptop and wifi .I told her she can use my laptop when ever she wants and I will have her desktop brought to her. I admit it would be easier for her to use my laptop than her desktop just for the plan fact of the compact size of it . I know she wants her own laptop .  I may just go get her one I have to look into it for her , the only thing is I don't get to get out of the house much .

Letter to Damian

Hello my Darling boy ,

Pawpaw and the 2255 Oliver

 I hope this finds you well . Pawpaw John's mom has finally arrived from the hospital . I am happy for her to not be in that place any more . I know she is happy too .  I miss you Damian .. I know we all do . I hope you are being taken care of like you should be .I hope you are getting all the hugs and kisses you deserve . I am sure you are it would kill me to think other wise . I long for the day when you can be here visiting us . I know Pawpaw needs you to ride the Oliver tractor  with him ,you liked doing that so much . Being at the shop with him climbing in and out of all the big trucks and tractors . 

              Love Always Meme......

Letter to Damian

Letter to Damian

Letter to Damian

Hey D,
 Meme is very sad today . I have gotten some really scary news and I hope it all turns out for the best . I had a mammogram done last week and I just got the call back yesterday . The nurse told me they found something.... something gray and blurry .I have to back to the hospital Next Thursday at 8:45 am . I asked the nurse is there any way we can get the ultrasound before than because Pawpaw John's mom is coming to stay with us so I can take care of her and the nurse said" we tried to find one earlier , but that is the only time ". I am scared Damian . What if we never get to see each other again ? Will you ever get to know me as your grandmother or will I be a tiny memory ? Like a dream to you .My heart breaks for that . I have missed so many great things in my 40 years here on this planet ,and it breaks for thing I may miss . You are the first .I love your mommy and her sisters very much but having the pleasure of spending time with you when you where a baby up to know with all the nastiness between your mommy and daddy . Breaks my heart .  I sent this to your grandma Regina asking her to talk to your daddy for me . I don't know if she will but like I said I will keep trying .                     Love , Meme
(Regina I have been trying and trying . I recently had a mammogram and I was told that there is something and I have to now have farther test done to see what is going on . I have an ultrasound coming up and I am telling you this because I don't know what is going to happen next and I am asking you to talk to Joe ,Let Damian know me before its to late for us to be a family . The kids have to go through what they must . I ask to let me be in Damian's life .)

                                                                                                     

Letter to Damian

Hey there little man I got this picture from your mom.

This is your mom when she came to see you at Christmas time and for your 3rd Birthday.

When no one would let you see her she was there . It makes me so angry when I think of they treat her. She loves you very much as do the rest of us . We think of you every day Damian . 

Love  Always Meme.

Letter to Damian

Hello my Darling boy ,
I hope you are well today. It has been really cold the last few days . I hope you had a wonderful Christmas . We have presents here for you , your Mommy tried to bring them to you when she was here but well your Daddy's family wouldn't let your Mommy see you when she was here . I think that was a really horrible thing to do . But what can I do ? I tried to reach your Grandma Regina at least once a week but she never answers here messages . We think about you all the time , and love you very very much .

                          Love  Always Meme,